okay this week has been NUTS. hahahahahah i dont even know where to begin. i have been in a WHEELCHAIR all week!!!!!!!!!!!!
i woke up on saturday with some pretty bad back pain and i didnt think much about it and then on sunday it was worse and i needed help sitting up and down and then on MONDAY all hell was UNLEASHED on my back!!! my poor companion had to yank me out of bed and i was like bawling crying and i couldnt move. basically worst night of my entire life. but there seriously is nothing that caused it!! it feels like this constant pain in my lower back and then every once in a while when i move or breathe or blink this sharp stabbing pain murders my entire body and takes my breathe away. seriously on monday i collapsed in the hallway and was shaking and apparently i went into shock because of the pain. YEAH NOT SURPRISED. hahahhaah seriously its been so so so weird i have no idea. i guess God thought i was just having too much fun. monday was probably one of the most PAINful days of my entire life thus far. i couldnt walk, get dressed, sleep, or even go to the bathroom by myself! its super funny because everyone would call me grandma because of my funny glasses that i brought and then this happened so now everyone in the CTM calls me grandma. so last night i slept on the floor and then it hurt too much so i slept in my WHEELCHAIR and then this morning i went to the hospital in a taxi with me and this one other american half braziliian girl so that she could transklate for me (but she was my splits companion before so super blessing!) and we had such a good time hahah. i got an Xray and two super strong medications and a shot in my BUTT and now im feeling super woosy but pretty good hahha. and despite all of the literal pain this week that ive gone through, its been so fun hahaha. i dont know why but it hasnt even dampered my mood for one minute! my companion is SOOOOO wonderful to me and plays with my hair and pulls up my pants for me after i pee (hahha sorry mom)
BUTTTTTT i asked one of the elders in my district for a priesthood blessing and it was exactly what i needed to hear. it was so special. it basically said that if i have faith in the blessing, i be chillin so im not stressing one bit! he said that i will get to serve a full time mission so dont worry about me out here! there are MORE than enough people taking care of me. i think thats why ive been so happy this week, i know im gonna be alright and this is just a temporary thing. It was so insteresting because the things that elder bloom had said were NOT his words at all. i could really feel havenly father´s love for me and like he hadnt forgotten me. it was cool to kind of reflect on the atonement knowing that jesus christ had suffered through this too and knew that i could handle that pain even though i was convinced my heart would stop beating at any MINUTE hahah. and im not being over dramatic.
ANYWAY. elder and sister neilson from the 70! came on sunday and gave some FIRE TALKS. it made me SO HAPPY to be here doing this special work! the list of sister missionaries serving in the latter days in a short one and im so happy that my name is on it. they also talked a ton about seeing the holiness in every day life. it really changed my perspective and i was able to handle my stupid back thing way better because of it.
eu amo vocês muitoooooo
xoxo
sister chamberlain
PS. THANK YOU TO EVERYONE who has written me emails i love them so much and take pictures of them and read them before i sleep every night!!!!!! im sorry if i dont have enough time to respond!!! but please know i really really appreciate and love each one!!!!!
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